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jezzica's Cancer BlogOctober 31, 2007
Its amazing how even as a survivor there is still a sense of dread that doesnt seem to go away. I have continued to go on with my life, in fact I have almost completed my MBA. Even though life goes on, there is still always something in the back of my mind that continues to question what the future holds for me. Each 3 month visit confirms to me that all is well with my body, but how do you heal the mind. Don’t get me wrong, if you ask anyone they would say WHAT Jessi sad. I was very strong during my recovery, not many tears at all. I kept trying to remember that staying positive was the means to surviving. This is the first time I have really talked about any of this since it happended. My husband was always one step behind me during my surgery and my recovery. If it wasn’t for him I don’t know what I would have done. The worst part about it was that I really wanted to survive because I couldn’t bare for my husband to go through another loss. His Step dad passed away about a month and a half after my surgery and his Mother a few months after that from Cancer. Ok need to stop talking for now.
I was 35 when I was Diagnosed, it’s kind of funny because I always knew something like this was going to happen to me because of the issues I had not being able to get pregnant. I went to the Dr’s often. My husband and I moved to a different state and the first month we moved I was getting all set up at a new Dr’s office and I just happen to mention that I had some previous issues and he asked if he could do a biopsy right then and there so I said yes. Well I am greatful that he asked because a few days later I got that aweful call.
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I’m really glad you’ve chosen to talk about your survivorship – it will help so many… including yourself! Talking about my own experience with breast cancer (I was extremely open about my disease since the day I was diagnosed) has been very therapeutic for me. I’m sure you’ll find this blog and the many supporters on here to be very helpful and encouraging… mostly because we can ALL relate to what you’re going through physically and mentally. Welcome Jessi!
Jessi – Glad you found this group. Welcome! I look forward to reading more.